late night —

Gabriel, my maternal grandfather humanized me through his humanity. Strange. Until recently, I didn’t remember anything. A few fragments: riding on my bidet… youuuu, leaning back. We sorted lentils together to remove the stones (it was mandatory before).

I follow his way of being with others. That must be why I’ve never seen any problem talking to elderly people. Elio with us, it’s similar. The relationship of equality in the couple, it must be him too, like mom.

Orthodox worship on France Culture. He talks about fear of suffering and death, like Buddhists: fear of birth (I don’t understand why), suffering, and death. And he goes on about religion and the resurrection that liberates…

Meh. 

The fundamental fear doesn’t come from that but from our miserable living conditions in a world that only wants one thing, to eliminate us: decivilization of domination. Why? Because some want all the space out of fear of life, of humans, of humanity, of women (which is why they are misogynistic). And so, to get rid of their fear, they want to eliminate the cause, others. What idiots, the cause is not others, the cause is their own stupidity / their inhumanity / the fact of resenting others and making them pay. Fools! They will never manage to eliminate their fear because they are the ones who create it. They will never be satisfied.

Only solution for them: stop thinking stupidly and live humanly. 

9:22am —

Cognitive psychology (in the Jewish religious, Talmudic program), personal development, religion, culture, arts, yoga, sports… as long as we remain in decivilization of domination, it’s like urinating into a violin. It’s useless. Worse, it validates decivilization of domination as the best of worlds when it is the worst.

Let’s first move into a civilization of human, interactive, and benevolent relations. Then, we can make useful work with all this among humans.

Nothing AGAINST the other (it’s at the same time AGAINST oneself because we are intimately connected).

Everything WITH the other, with benevolence.

No punishment, no domination, we each do our own sorting of human / inhuman and eliminate the inhuman that kills us.

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My humanity wrinkled by dirty jokes and all misogyny, it comes from Gabriel, my maternal grandfather, a real human, who lived through the entire war of 14 in the trenches, was gassed and taken prisoner at the very end, the whole ordeal. 

How did he manage to remain human? 

With the nonsense of religion like this painting in Aunt Marcelle’s room, the bleeding face of Jesus on the cross beneath the thorns of the crown of thorns. And the phrase at the bottom “it is not for jokes that I have loved you”.

You really have to be extremely dominant to come up with such nonsense and crush with domination those who have nothing to do with it and who are already suffering from domination and inhumanity at 1000%. And one more layer… it’s not the last.

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An ethologist last night on France Inter: scientific approach = question, properly pose the question, make a hypothesis, conduct an experiment and learn the answer to the question from the results.

Finally, since I was little, I have been a researcher in human relations according to my experiences. Example in 2019, sending an April Fool’s prank to our CEO. Very instructive about the inhumanity of the hierarchy, even if his henchmen held themselves back immensely to not reveal themselves.

Goal: put humans at the rightful level they deserve = the first. Otherwise it doesn’t work / it doesn’t fit. Decivilization of domination is inhumane. Only the civilization of interactive and benevolent human relations is ad hoc, as the Captain would say.

The ethologist goes to schools to motivate those who don’t think they can reach the heights of dreams they don’t even have.

She had a positive experience at school. She was bad at math. And a math teacher (not the main teacher) asked them what they wanted to do later. She said “ethologist” (study of animal behavior in their environment). She thought it was about telling stories and that’s what she wanted to do. The teacher found out she needed math for that scientific track. Thus, the teacher encouraged, supported, and helped her to reach the level and get there. Her conclusion, everyone can dream and reach the heights of their dreams. Kind of testimony that does good to humans.